{"id":3750,"date":"2025-08-03T05:50:56","date_gmt":"2025-08-03T05:50:56","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/doktorica.org\/?p=3750"},"modified":"2025-08-03T05:56:04","modified_gmt":"2025-08-03T05:56:04","slug":"ne-trazim-nista-veliko-samo-dan-u-kojem-ne-moram-biti-jaca-nego-sto-jesam","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/doktorica.org\/index.php\/2025\/08\/03\/ne-trazim-nista-veliko-samo-dan-u-kojem-ne-moram-biti-jaca-nego-sto-jesam\/","title":{"rendered":"Ne tra\u017eim ni\u0161ta veliko \u2013 samo dan u kojem ne moram biti ja\u010da nego \u0161to jesam"},"content":{"rendered":"<div class=\"entry\">\n\n\n<p><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u017delim slobodu od moranja<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ne tra\u017eim ni\u0161ta veliko, samo dan u kojem ne moram biti ja\u010da nego \u0161to jesam.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Kad \u2018moram\u2019 postane previ\u0161e<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ne \u017eelim pobje\u0107i iz \u017eivota.<br \/>Ne \u017eelim nestati.<br \/>Ne \u017eelim prestati biti ja.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Samo \u017eelim slobodu od moranja.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Da di\u0161em bez pritiska.<br \/>Da postojim bez obja\u0161njenja.<br \/>Da budem \u2013 bez da i\u0161ta moram.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Moranja su tiha. Ne dolaze vikom. Oni se u\u0161uljaju, kroz obaveze, o\u010dekivanja, \u201esamo jo\u0161 ovo\u201c, \u201ebudi jaka\u201c, \u201esvi to rade\u201c. I najednom&nbsp; vi\u0161e ne zna\u0161 gdje si ti, a gdje su svi oni koje poku\u0161ava\u0161 ne razo\u010darati.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sloboda o kojoj niko ne govori<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ne tra\u017eim slobodu od ljudi.<br \/>Ni od posla.<br \/>Ni od obaveza.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Tra\u017eim slobodu od osje\u0107aja da stalno moram:<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>biti dostupna,<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>biti jaka,<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>biti raspolo\u017eena,<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>odgovarati na poruke,<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>imati odgovor na sve,<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>skrivati suze i umor iza osmijeha.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Slobodu od perfekcije. Slobodu od tu\u0111ih projekcija. Slobodu od o\u010dekivanja koja nisam birala.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ne moram biti OK svaki dan<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Postoji dan kada si umorna, ali to ne govori\u0161 da ne brinu.<br \/>Dan kad se nasmije\u0161, ali to nije osmijeh ve\u0107 refleks.<br \/>Dan kad si jaka jer nema\u0161 izbora, a ne zato \u0161to si dobro.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I tada, iznutra, dolazi re\u010denica koja puca kao tiha molitva:<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201eSamo da jedan dan ne moram ni\u0161ta.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ne moram misliti pozitivno.<br \/>Ne moram biti organizovana.<br \/>Ne moram biti bolja verzija sebe.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Samo postojati. Bez plana. Bez dokaza. Bez uloge.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Moranja nas udaljavaju od sebe<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Nekad shvati\u0161 da si vi\u0161e vremena provela ispunjavaju\u0107i tu\u0111a o\u010dekivanja, nego slu\u0161aju\u0107i \u0161ta ti zapravo \u017eeli\u0161.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Zna\u0161 li jo\u0161 \u0161ta \u017eeli\u0161?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Zna\u0161 li kako izgleda dan koji nisi uredila po tu\u0111im standardima?<br \/>Zna\u0161 li kako ti srce kuca kada ne poku\u0161ava\u0161 biti ne\u0161to \u0161to drugi lak\u0161e prihvataju?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ako ne zna\u0161, nisi kriva.<br \/>Samo si dugo bila u moranju.<br \/>A sad je vrijeme za nje\u017enost.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Dozvola: Ne mora\u0161<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Zato ti pi\u0161em ovo:<br \/>Ne mora\u0161 danas.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ne mora\u0161 biti inspiracija.<br \/>Ne mora\u0161 biti jaka.<br \/>Ne mora\u0161 ustajati s osmijehom.<br \/>Ne mora\u0161 imati odgovor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Danas ima\u0161 pravo na ti\u0161inu, na \u201ene mogu\u201c, na \u201ene\u0107u sada\u201c.<br \/>I niko ni ti sama ne treba da te zbog toga natjera da se osje\u0107a\u0161 manje vrijednom.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sloboda po\u010dinje kad ka\u017ee\u0161 sebi: dosta moranja<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Mo\u017eda sloboda nije negdje daleko.<br \/>Mo\u017eda nije u selidbi, promjeni posla, niti u velikim odlukama.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Mo\u017eda sloboda po\u010dinje sa:<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Danas ne\u0107u da se forsiram.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Danas ne\u0107u sve da stignem.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Danas ne\u0107u da glumim da mi je sve jasno.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Danas ne moram.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>To \u201ene moram\u201c je tvoje pravo. Tvoj prostor za disanje. Tvoj prvi korak ka sebi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Zavr\u0161na misao<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u017delim slobodu od moranja.<br \/>Ne zato \u0161to sam slaba.<br \/>Nego zato \u0161to sam predugo bila jaka bez pauze.<br \/>Zato \u0161to mi treba dan bez zahtjeva, bez definicija, bez naslova.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Samo ja, bez uloga.<br \/>Bez o\u010dekivanja.<br \/>Bez tereta.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I zna\u0161 \u0161ta?<br \/>To nije luksuz.<br \/>To je ljudska potreba.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-gallery has-nested-images columns-default is-cropped wp-block-gallery-1 is-layout-flex wp-block-gallery-is-layout-flex\">\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"778\" height=\"1024\" data-id=\"3752\" src=\"http:\/\/doktorica.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/08\/img_20250803_0755248999697976231108086-778x1024.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-3752\" srcset=\"https:\/\/doktorica.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/08\/img_20250803_0755248999697976231108086-778x1024.jpg 778w, https:\/\/doktorica.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/08\/img_20250803_0755248999697976231108086-228x300.jpg 228w, https:\/\/doktorica.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/08\/img_20250803_0755248999697976231108086-768x1011.jpg 768w, https:\/\/doktorica.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/08\/img_20250803_0755248999697976231108086.jpg 1080w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 778px) 100vw, 778px\" \/><\/figure>\n<\/figure>\n\n\n<\/div>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>\u017delim slobodu od moranja Ne tra\u017eim ni\u0161ta veliko, samo dan u kojem ne moram biti ja\u010da nego \u0161to jesam. Kad \u2018moram\u2019 postane previ\u0161e Ne \u017eelim pobje\u0107i iz \u017eivota.Ne \u017eelim nestati.Ne \u017eelim prestati biti ja. Samo \u017eelim slobodu od moranja. Da di\u0161em bez pritiska.Da postojim bez obja\u0161njenja.Da budem \u2013 bez da i\u0161ta moram. Moranja su tiha. &#8230;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":3753,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[3,15],"tags":[],"class_list":["post post-3750","anons"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/doktorica.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3750","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/doktorica.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/doktorica.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/doktorica.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/doktorica.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=3750"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/doktorica.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3750\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3754,"href":"https:\/\/doktorica.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3750\/revisions\/3754"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/doktorica.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/3753"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/doktorica.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=3750"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/doktorica.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=3750"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/doktorica.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=3750"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}